You've told me who I am.

         Second English Camp in my life is over. I'm so glad I could be there and enjoyed it with all my American and Polish friends.I'm thankful I was part of something special.

First of all I wanted to say  thank you to Josie, Katherine, Lindsey and Doreen for their help and truly conversations. Without you I couldn't move on and start to think positively. 

It was an awesome time! Time with God and for God. Now we have to move on and wait for next camp. But I know that everything what happened was for a reason and I know that it will help me to survive this year. I know prayers count and help. I really appreciate we were praying together and it was an awesome expierience in my life to spent time with you. I hope one day my faith will be as deep as yours. Reading Bible is a part of my day and I've never thought it can be so big satisfaction for me. 

Even if you have doubts it's good! You just have to find your way. And if you choose the way with God, remember that you have NOTHING to lose, you can only WIN. And:

"One day every tongue will confess You are God

One day every knee will bow

Still, the greates treasure remains for those

Who glady choose You now".

 I'm sure your life will be easier. And if you found a person, who can you share your thoughts with, you will be a lucky guy. And I think I'll find someone for me. God'll give me an awesome person.  And remember that you can't dispense a justice by yourself! You have to give all your fears to God. And it's not "one night decision"! It's a long and very hard process and one thing you have to do is to BELIVE and put your TRUST into God.

God hears you all the time, He's with you, He looks at you and He loves you!

Who am I?

That the Lord of all the earth,

Would care to know my name,

Would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I?

That the bright and morning star,

Would choose to light the way,

For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,

But because of what you've done.

Not because of what I've done,

But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow,

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,

And you've told me who I am.

I am yours.

I am yours.

He's your father and you're His child. Just be brave enough and start following Him. 

Love, 

K. 

Lessons

And we have JULY! English camp is in 4 days! I'm so happy and excited. It has been a year since God is in my life - alive. This year was for sure good and full of new experiences. This year showed me who is the real friend and who just pretends. I've learned a lot of things which help me right now. I'm so grateful to my mum and one of my teachers for showing me what's important in life and for giving me the chance to do what I really love and for help they gave me. 

I spent this year with faith, hope, love and thankfulness. Every day was a mystery I wanted solve. And I think I found my way. I found person, who is always there when I need it. I fall in love and although it was a mistake I don't regret because then it was the thing I really wanted. And it was lesson for me. Everything happens for a reason, remember!

The truth is life is hard but you're strong enough to go through it. You just need to find out the ways you want follow. I chose God but you can choose anything you want. But living with Jesus is the best way and you can do it everything with Him. 

Wish you all awesome holidays!

What now?

Since 3 months I haven't written anything except my competiton's story... So it's time to share my minds with you, guys! 

We have march, second class of high school and I don't know what I want to do in the future... Everyone says: "do what makes you happy", "you should know what do you like"... OMG, that scares me, really! I don't want to grow up... Just wanna be a teen all my life! It would be awesome, won't it? 

Okay, foreign languages are rally cool but is it something what will make my future or just hobbies for now? All that English and German stuff "eat" my whole free time right now and it makes me pleasure cause I know that it is NOT the waste of time. Sometimes I just wonder if I shouldn't focus my mind on chemistry or biology... But when I have biology book in my hands, trust me... it doesn't make me feel happy... but I know that my future will be much better if I do smth with these subjects! Soooo I think I have to be strong and brave and first of all BELIVE IN MYSELF! And it's not only about me, remeber! All of you have to choose what to do in the future and at least 75% of you have the same problem as I have, I'm sure! 

But do you know what helps? FAITH! When you know that God is with you, by your side, everything is better, easier and possible! You just have to belive and let God create your life. He's perfect and His timing is perfect as well. He wants the best for you and be with you all the time. You just have to let Him come. I'm very sure that's the best way to live! Think of it and let me know if I helped you! 

Wish you all luck and happiness, till then! 

XOXO

GG. 

I'm not a man I was before

And now we have December... It's 6 months after I made this decision. 6 months after the best time of my life! Now I'm just waiting for Christmas and New Years. Only 6 months will separate me from summer break and english camp! I just can't wait!

Today I decided to change the way I live my life. I've just finished my training! I'm happy and relaxed. I HAVE TO WORK OUT DAILY! I can only eat healthy products and drink water. NO FAST-FOODS, SWEETS etc.


And I know He is with me all the time. I learned how to pray, how to talk with Him, and how to be thankful for everything I have. Last time Lindsey inspired me: "He is a Dad that listens to every complaint I make, catches every tear that falls, holds me as I lay awake at 3am because I'm stressed, loves me as I fail Him every day, pursues me when no one else accepts me, and holds onto my hand when I am falling off a cliff." When I read it I was like uhh... "Wow, I want be in it at least half of what she is." Lately I I have written that I love the way Baptists are talking about God... And it's the best example I can have. I was right! It's like a normal thing, and this way of thinking is awesome! When you have doubts about your faith, religion etc., just take a Bible and read it from the beggining. I know it may be hard, but after everything, you'll understand more. And do you know what is the best? That feeling! I remember how my life used to be before Jesus found me, and it's absolutely diffrent!
Wishes!

Way of thinking

And the second month of school is over... Wow, where has the time gone! If the next 8 months are like September and October, the holidays will come sooooooo fast! How awesome! And I really need the holiday break. I really need to meet people who give me reasons to smile. I just want to sit next to Katherine and Lindsey and talk about a bunch of stupid things that are in my mind; that's the one thing I want right now. 

You want to know what's up? I just hate this town, these faces, these people.. They all think that they're my friends, but they just pretend to be because they need something... "Kasia, help me..." or "Kasia, I don't know how to do my English homework..." Ugggh! It's frustrating! And what am I doing? I'm helping them... I just can't say, "No, it's your problem, I don't care". I just CAN'T! I was fine with all this stuff until I changed the way of thinking. My real friend can always ask me for help because they're with me whatever happens!!! They're always next to me and I know they will be. People who talk to you only when they need something should be embarassed. 

Last Sunday was the second time I went to a Baptist Church. It's an awesome experience in my life being part of a church like this. The way people are talking about God is incredible! It's like a feeling you get when you like a boy and someone is talking about him all the time... It's the same feeling I have when I can hear how people who love God can talk about Him in a normal way. It's not the same like in Catholic church! Belonging to church doesn't mean you're Christian... You have to have a relationship with God and talk with Him even when you think He doesn't understand you... But God does understand you!!! Jesus is always with you and His timing is perfect; sometimes people are just inpatient... I've read many books explaining the Bible, the life of Jesus, etc. And after reading them, when I'm reading the Bible, I can understand what it says more clearly. I mean, everything that is written in the Bible is the perfect Book is truth. Before reading, I couldn't believe what people said. But now I can. I've just discovered the strength of the Bible's word. I remember how my life used to be without any real faith, and I'm really glad that Jesus found me. He's with me every single day! I'm totally thankful and my life is more easy than it was. "Lord I lift your name on high, Lord I want to sing your praises. I'm so glad you're in my life, I'm so glad You came to save us"

How life can change in a week...

And next vacations of my life are over. It was the best time in my life! Many things changed during this summer and I know that  it's better for me. So, I'll tell ya my summer story :)

It was April when I decided to go to English Camp this year. I was a little bit confused when I got the information that is Christian camp but it wasn't chance to give up so I went there. When I come to Kudowa-Zdroj my humor was very good. I went out from my car and smiled. When I walked through the hotel's door and saw all these people I thought "Wow, it must be amazing". Already during competition test I met Julie. I was very stressed, I didn't even understand when she asked me what time am I on the camp... It was embarassing but she was very nice and told me that I don't have any reasons to be stressed. I chilled. 

During supper I took place next to Julie and we had converstation. I was happy I can talk to her and my doubts were over! In the evening I met many another people from the USA. They were very nice and I immidietly liked them. 

 We met each other more and more all the time. I was spending my free time with two Katherines and Lindsey. We were going to the city, talking, playing soccer with another Polish and American people. Everything was awesome and I didn't want camp ending. 

It was Friday... I was talking with Katherine about God, faith etc. I was really happy that she was the person with whom I can share my mind and opinion and that I could tell her of what am I scared. She was listening to me and was very helpful. In the evening when she shared with me her testimony, after another conversation about Jesus and when her dad told us that living without Jesus doesn't make sense I made the most important decision 'til in my life. Now I just can't imagine day without praying and talking to God. I'm happy I decided to follow Jesus and I'm thankful that Katherine showed me the way to him.
You know? I've never thought I could be on the way I'm right now. I went to the camp thinking I could learn language ane meet many people. And I did, but the thing I'll always remember is decison to follow God and conversations with Girls. I even can't think how my life could look like now if I didn't meet you, guys!
Until I gave my heart God my life is easier and I can understand many things I didn't earlier. I hope He give me a strength to be a Christian my whole life. And remember, God wants your love because he loves you and he's still waiting for you! 

That's my story, maybe it'll help someone to decide to follow Jesus.