Do not wait for the perfect moment...it can be too late.

Every time, I've tried to apologize someone, it took so much time. I was always looking for perfect words, waiting for the perfect situation- everything just to keep the apology further. We, as people, have inclintations towards delaying important things in time. I think it is stupid from ourselves. We can't predict the future and the longer we delay something it can transpire that is too late for saying or doing what we wanted. 

Lately I lost someone, about whom I would never tell that gonna be temporary in my life. We've been friends for 3 years. It is the person, who knows everything about me and who I shared all my secrets with. I've never thought she can disappear from my life. I was thinking we will be friends forever but it didn't happen. There are so many things I haven't told her yet and I would never have an opportunity to do that. Now you probably think 'what kind of things if she knows everything about you'...yes, she does but it's not all about me. I wish I could bring her closer to Jesus. I haven't done it. I was thinking that I am not strong enough beliver. I was thinking that some preacher has to come and put the perfect words together to let her know about God and all these great things He is doing for us. I wasn't brave enough to share my faith with her. I've tried but every time I was giving it up with the conviction that I can't do anything. And this thinking was totally wrong. Now I regret that I didn't take the chance and lead her straight to God. I was for the perfect moment instead of taking moment and making it perfect. And...I wouldn't have this chance anymore. So if you need to tell or do something, do not wait! Just go and do that. Do not wait cause it can be too late... Trust me. 

I am sure that all of you want to say/do something but don't know how, where and when you should start. You probably repeat yourself: "I will do that tomorrow"- but I am gonna to tell you something: one of my friends told us in church that yesterday he saw the piece of paper at the hairdresser's door where was written: "tomorrow we will cut your hair for free"- he thought that it is awesome and came back the next day and saw the same note. Then he understood that "tomorrow" means NEVER. Try to think about your own life and the situation you said "tomorrow" and you did nothing about it at all. We all say that. We are scared to take the responsibility for our decisions that's why we keep delaying things in time. And we should not do that! If you want to change your life, say something, do something new- DO NOT WAIT FOR THE PERFECT MOMENT! How would you actually know if this moment is good to do that or not?! You don't know that and you won't untill you start doing something. I know that sometimes it's probably not easy but it is worth to change things now. And NOW means NOW but TOMORROW means NEVER, remember that. You don't even know what happens tomorrow, if you gonna have another chance or opportunity to do the things you want but don't have enough courage, Just think about it. And if you can't figure something out on your own I know someone who can help you, you just have to let Him in. 

Love,

K. 

"I am the way, the truth and the life"

   "Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." - John 14:6 

You probably have heard this passage many times in your life. But have you ever wondered what does it mean? Have you been looking for " the way, the truth and the life" meaning? If not, then I can assure you that these words can change your life forever.  I am going to try to tell you what does it mean. 

     Jesus said unto him, I am the way,.... Our Lord takes the opportunity of this discourse about the place he was going to, and the way unto it, more fully to instruct his disciples concerning himself, saying, "I am the way",  Christ is not merely the way, as he goes before his people as an example or merely as a prophet, pointing out unto them by his doctrine the way of salvation; but he is the way of salvation itself by his obedience and sacrifice nor is there any other he is the way of his Father's appointing, and which is entirely agreeable to the perfections of God, and suitable to the case and condition of sinners he is the way to all the blessings of the covenant of grace and he is the right way into a Gospel church state here no one comes rightly into a church of Christ but by faith in him and he is the way to heaven: he is entered into it himself by his own blood, and has opened the way to it through himself for his people: he adds, the truth he is not only true, but truth itself: this may regard his person and character he is the true God, and eternal life truly and really man as a prophet he taught the way of God in truth as a priest, he is a faithful, as well as a merciful one, true and faithful to him that appointed him and as a King, just and true are all his ways and administrations: he is the sum and substance of all the truths of the Gospel they are all full of him, and centre in him and he is the truth of all the types and shadows, promises and prophecies of the Old Testament; they have all their accomplishment in him and he is the true way, in opposition to all false ones of man's devising. And this phrase seems to be opposed to a notion of the Jews, that the law was the true way of life, and who confined truth to the law. They have a saying, that , "Moses and his law are the truth"; this they make Korah and his company say in hell. That the law of Moses was truth, is certain but it is too strong an expression to say of Moses himself, that he was truth; but well agrees with Christ, by whom grace and truth came in opposition to Moses, by whom came the law: but when they say , "there is no truth but the law", they do not speak truth. More truly do they speak, when, in answer to that question, "what is truth?" it is said, that he is the living God, and King of the world, characters that well agree with Christ. 

And the life: Christ is the author and giver of life, natural, spiritual, and eternal; or he is the way of life, or "the living way"; in opposition to the law, which was so far from being the way of life, that it was the ministration of condemnation and death: he always, and ever will be the way, all in this way live, none ever die; and it is a way that leads to eternal life: and to conclude all the epithets in one sentence, Christ is the true way to eternal life It is added by way of explanation of him, as the way, 
no man cometh unto the Father but by me; Christ is the only way of access unto the Father; there is no coming to God as an absolute God, not upon the foot of the covenant of works, nor without a Mediator; and the only Mediator between God and man is Christ: he introduces and presents the persons and services of his people to his Father, and gives them acceptance with him. 

That's how I do understand it. Christmas is coming and I thought that maybe it can be the time for you, to start the new life in Christ. Living with Jesus is an awesome thing but you have to let Him in cause He is waiting for the invitation. 

Amen. 

K. 

Something new.

The end of something is begining of something else. Summer is over, high-school is over and now it's time to grow up. I was thinking that it's never gonna happen and I'll saty child forever... But it did and it's time to wake up and start the new life.

I've just started college. Everyone I know says: "It's the best time in your life! You'll love it!", but I'm not so excited as they are... And I don't even know why. Maybe when I'll get to know everything about my studies, get to know my class mates then I'll change my attitude. But now, I miss my home, family and the old friends. I feel so lonley here. And it's actually funny because since I can remember, I've always wanted to leave. My dream was working abroad and move out. I've never thought it can be so hard to abondon family and just leave. Now I can see that it's hard, very hard. 

But the time has come. I have to learn how to live on my own. Parents aren't here anymore. IT IS TIME TO BECOME AN ADULT... and it scares me so much. 

Right before my movement I had an argument with my friend. And its awful because I want to talk to her and tell her how am I feeling, how is college and I can't.. It doesn't help at all... I fon't know if I should make the first step orjust wait for she to text me... I don't really know what to do. I miss her so much. 

But it is the one thing I am sure about. God is with me and He holds me. I have my Best Friend just a prayer away. And it helps me to get up every single day- this knowledge that He is next to me and I can rely on Him. He comforts me all the time and fills my heart with peace. Without Him I wouldn't be able to face all of the problems on my way. He catches me when I am falling and it is the best feeling ever- being aware of that fact. 

Lately I've been watching the movie "Do you belive?". In my opinion this movie is great. It shows how people, who love God are able to sacrifice things they have for others and for God. They don't care what others will think about them. If they decided to follow Jesus, no one can stop them. This movie shows, how God loves us and how often we even don't know that something is a blessing and we don't see any point but God knows what's best for us and He gots plans for everyone. His timing is perfect and He sees what we really need instead of what we think we need... He is the only One who can calm every storm. I know, sometimes it's hard to belive without any borders but if you do, there are no regrets then! It's so worth to belive, fully belive. The conviction that You are the Child of God is the best thing ever! And it's only up to you if you decide to follow Jesus or not. I know that following Jesus can be for you, let's say "uncomfortable" but the prize is high, right? He died for you and me to cleanese us from sins and give us the entire life- you can have it, you just need to give your life to Jesus. 

Good luck! 

K. 

Something special.

And Summer is almost over... I think that these holidays were totally the best!!! I could be part of great two camps, where God's word was shared and it was an awesome expierience!

I even don't know, where did the vacation go...It was really good time. It was great to have an oportunity to see old friends and make new ones. I've learnt a lot and I was able to teach a lot as well. For the first time in my life, I was feeling that the thing I do, really matters and that it can help someone. I loved seeing how people, who love God, share His word with others. It is the proof, how much God loves us, by using us to do work for Him. 

I've expierienced something really scary during one camp. One girl came to me and hugged me... I was wondering what's going on, cause I haven't known her... She wasn't in my group, I haven't talked to her before and I was surprised that she chose me to tell abot something, what's happened. I decided to talk to her so we went to the tent to be alone. When she started telling me, that one of her friends comitted suicide I was frozen... When I saw tears in her eyes... I haven't had any idea what should I do. It was the first time when I offered a prayer to someone I don't know... And it was the only thing that came into my mind...So I started praying but I had problems with words, I didn't know what should I say, I wanted to be careful not to hurt her more. I didn't even know if she believs in God or not... But after that she hugged me once again and thanked me for being there for her. It was one of the greatest moments in my life! I helped someone, who was feeling alone, sad and haven't seen any purpose to live.

I think that God wanted to show me, that it doesn't matter, if we know someone or not, we should help them in the very best way we can and show that we care and are there for. That's what God's people do. They help and they don't want anything in return. They show people the right way. And I know that it is worth to do things like that. It's worth to work for God!!! 

Besides camps, I had an opportunity to meet some new amazing people, who started to have an influence on my life. They showed me what really matters, what is right, what should we care about. Having truly conversations with them was a lesson I will always remember. Some of these people live so far away that the contact is possible only via the internet, others live in Poland what's cool, cause I know, that we are going to see each other as often as possible. I know that I can rely on them and call them whenever I want. I am sure that they will help me when I need it. And one women, she thought me that giving is important, but when someone offers you his help, no matter what kind of help is it, you should take it. You have to learn how to take and give at the same time. You have to let people help you. You have to be brave enough to ask for help. Some people think that  it is the weakness- asking for help. But IT IS NOT! It's normal that we need help and we should allow people to help us. 

And I know, who is going to help you ALWAYS... God will do that. He carres for you, simply because you are his child and He is your Father. When you pray, you can tell Him whatever you want, He knows what you are thinking about before you say anything. He knows everything about you and wants your happiness! He knows the depths of your heart and He loves you the same! You have to remember that, Brother. 

And... It does not cost anything to talk to Him. Just your time...but I can guarantee thet it is worth, so maybe you can try it some time? Just think about it!

Lots of God's love!!!

K. 

It works, it really does!

And finally it's the SENIOR year of high-school! I think it's the best time in your teens. Although matura exam is in 7 months and I know that I am NOT ready to pass it, I am the happiest person in the world right now!

 I have the best friend I could ever ask for; I passed my driving-license test; I'm ready to take a part in competition in German; My new English teacher is really cool; Relationship with my parents is pretty good; I'm truly loved by my Heavenly Father- God. What do I need more? Actually nothing. My life is perfect just the way it is right now. 

I expierienced something great this month. One girl from my school texted me and asked about English Camp. I was a little bit surprised cause I didn't talk to her much before. We were talking about that and suddenly she told me she is a Christian. Firstly I was confused and couldn't belive that's happening. Why? At the English Camp L, K & J were praying for me to find a person, I mean, to God gives me a person, who I can talk to about all my struggles, my faith, thoughts, what am I afraid of abou God and the Bible. It was 2 months ago... I've never thought it will happen soooo fast. To be honest I forgot about that and just didn't care. The way of God's work is so incredible. He is perfect and His timing is perfect, too! 

Sooo, we became friends very fast. We were talking about God, I shared my testimony with her, she introduced herself to me. It was our first conversation. After that we went to the Church together and had an awesome time at the meeting for teenagers. I met there many other people who loves God as much as I do! 

I am very, very, very happy and thankfull that God gave me her! Prayers work, they really do and you just have to belive. You are the child of almighty God and He wants you to be happy, He want all the best for you cause He is your father and He can give you more than your earthly father ever did. He knows everythin about you, He sees the depths of your heart and He loves you the same. He doesn't count your sins, He forgives you all the time because He loves you. And remember that God is good all the time, and al the time God is good!  

To be the child of God is the best feeling ever. You know that whatever happens there is someone who is for you ALWAYS. Just be close to Him, tlak to Him, pray, be His friend and everything is gonna be alright, trust me! 

God bless you!

You've told me who I am.

         Second English Camp in my life is over. I'm so glad I could be there and enjoyed it with all my American and Polish friends.I'm thankful I was part of something special.

First of all I wanted to say  thank you to Josie, Katherine, Lindsey and Doreen for their help and truly conversations. Without you I couldn't move on and start to think positively. 

It was an awesome time! Time with God and for God. Now we have to move on and wait for next camp. But I know that everything what happened was for a reason and I know that it will help me to survive this year. I know prayers count and help. I really appreciate we were praying together and it was an awesome expierience in my life to spent time with you. I hope one day my faith will be as deep as yours. Reading Bible is a part of my day and I've never thought it can be so big satisfaction for me. 

Even if you have doubts it's good! You just have to find your way. And if you choose the way with God, remember that you have NOTHING to lose, you can only WIN. And:

"One day every tongue will confess You are God

One day every knee will bow

Still, the greates treasure remains for those

Who glady choose You now".

 I'm sure your life will be easier. And if you found a person, who can you share your thoughts with, you will be a lucky guy. And I think I'll find someone for me. God'll give me an awesome person.  And remember that you can't dispense a justice by yourself! You have to give all your fears to God. And it's not "one night decision"! It's a long and very hard process and one thing you have to do is to BELIVE and put your TRUST into God.

God hears you all the time, He's with you, He looks at you and He loves you!

Who am I?

That the Lord of all the earth,

Would care to know my name,

Would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I?

That the bright and morning star,

Would choose to light the way,

For my ever wandering heart.

Not because of who I am,

But because of what you've done.

Not because of what I've done,

But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,

Here today and gone tomorrow,

A wave tossed in the ocean,

A vapor in the wind.

Still you hear me when I'm calling,

Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,

And you've told me who I am.

I am yours.

I am yours.

He's your father and you're His child. Just be brave enough and start following Him. 

Love, 

K. 

Lessons

And we have JULY! English camp is in 4 days! I'm so happy and excited. It has been a year since God is in my life - alive. This year was for sure good and full of new experiences. This year showed me who is the real friend and who just pretends. I've learned a lot of things which help me right now. I'm so grateful to my mum and one of my teachers for showing me what's important in life and for giving me the chance to do what I really love and for help they gave me. 

I spent this year with faith, hope, love and thankfulness. Every day was a mystery I wanted solve. And I think I found my way. I found person, who is always there when I need it. I fall in love and although it was a mistake I don't regret because then it was the thing I really wanted. And it was lesson for me. Everything happens for a reason, remember!

The truth is life is hard but you're strong enough to go through it. You just need to find out the ways you want follow. I chose God but you can choose anything you want. But living with Jesus is the best way and you can do it everything with Him. 

Wish you all awesome holidays!